Forest of Words

Roses are sometimes red

Violets are almost never blue 

I wake up 

Thinking of YOU

I go to sleep 

Thinking of YOU

Falling

Falling 

Falling

Falling deeper in love with you 

Through the hard times 

Through the easy times

With every single breath

The way you smile

The way you breath

Pulling us closer

Deeper 

Eternally

I love you, Umair 

It’s another freaking Friday, and I am missing you crazily

And I wish you were home here with me 

In our home 

Sharing our life 

It’s the same wish I send up each night to the stars above 

Bring my baby home

I love you, Umair 

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So, in the grand scheme of things

Hopeless, romantic, and the way our story goes

Umair and I had been talking on the phone

Umair starts talking about his ID card and the status of single and how he’d like to change that

Since that time, he has asked me to marry him many, many more times, and each time the answer was always YES!! HE double toothpicks I will marry you! And I did!!! I think that the first time was the ultimate in romantic for a couple who is 8000 miles apart, aching for each other !!!

Flash forward to our wedding day

Umair drops to one knee and slips the ring on my finger…. Boom he just took my breath away all over again!!!

That man is my entire everything

I love you so much, baby

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Happy Anniversary!! We got the best news on our 8 month anniversary!!! Our I130 is approved we are waiting for our visa from NVC! For every single sunrise and sunset we have had to spend apart I cannot wait for you to be home!!! I love you baby! Happy Anniversary!!!!

We got our I-130 approval today and it’s bittersweet because now we start NVC processing and guess what we have to ask for expedited this too. Do me a giant solid people hug your spouse tighter tonight and every night! Please say prayers for us that they approve our NVC expedite request. I love my husband and it’s been eight months since I got to hold him at night and let me just say I miss him so much and we are on the phone all the time:) What I mean is I have physically missed his arms around me! He is my air, my comfort, my Mr. Umair (Mr. Darcy reference for the hopeless romantics and Jane Austin fans) I ache for my husband!

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Loving You is effortless Umair

Loving you is as easy as breathing and existing

the only painful part is waiting for you to come home

shout out to all the married couples of the world!!

If any of you have ever had to experience the pain of losing your mother-in-law, or father in law or mother or father it all applies. Did you grieve with your spouse? Naturally, you did. Don’t get me wrong by any means 💜💜 My husband 💜💜 was absolutely here for me in every way that he possibly was able to. I think the system is flawed for immigration when we asked if he could come and travel, my mother dying wasn’t enough of a reason her in stage four kidney failure, and in the last weeks of her of life Umair was absolutely with me through the entire process. I am so grateful that we do have Internet and we were able to be on video call for the remaining days. They were precious where Umair and I and mom spent treasured moments laughing and crying. And her carrying that beloved bag of peanuts! I ache for his heart and his grieving as well and our entire families because they were all a part of that process. I hurt for 💜💜 My husband 💜💜 because he wanted to be with me, mom and the kids. Families together does matter.

ps Umair sends me love letters too each day his are in photos he takes throughout the day when we are not texting or on FaceTime videos. xoxo with love the Umairs

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Har minute meri shohar Umair, mein hun arzoo

Another night 

I lay here aching for you 

The sounds of night are hollow 

With every breath, a deeper longing to feel you lying next to me 

With every breath, desires flames consume me 

I am spiraling down

Down to where there are no sounds 

Only sheer force 

Willpower 

And desire pulling you closer to me

Across oceans 

Across deserts

Across seas 

Across approximately 8000-ish miles

My heart pounds out your name, Umair

8000-ish wishes carried off through the stars

I ache to feel your arms around me 

I ache to bury my face in that place on your chest that is mine alone 

I ache to feel the warmth of your skin softly touching me 

I lay here needing you like so many nights before 

I lay here longing for sleep to beckon me in 

For in my dreams, those miles disappear, and I race to you 

I love you 

I love you 

Happy 8-month anniversary a little early 

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You ask why do I love you 

And I say, why do birds love to sing

You ask why I love you 

And I say, why do the trees love to flow in the breeze 

You ask why do I love you 

And I say, why does the earth gently flow in time with each of us

You ask why do I love you 

And I say because Umair

I ardently love you 

I love you deeply

Completely 

Sweetly 

Truly, Madly and Deeply

You asked why do I love you 

Because Umair before you, no other touch mattered, and then it all mattered 

You are everything

You kissed away every hurt 

You looked at scars and saw beauty 

Because you looked at me with tenderness and love 

Because you made me your Queen

You are my King 

Because Umair, you are my everything 

Your signature is beautifully tattooed on my skin 

Because Umair, you are my Universe and Galaxy

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There are countless moments throughout each day 

When you are on my mind 

From the moment I open my eyes each day

To the moment I close my eyes each day

And millions of moments in between 

You are my husband

But you are so much more 

Millions of words I want to say

I ache to hold you close

I ache to feel you pull me near 

To feel you kissing me deeply when I wake from sleep

To feel your arms wrapped around me when I go for sleep 

A million trillion needs 

All from you 

A million trillion ways I need you 

A million trillion ways I want to tell you 

I love you, Umair 

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One of my favorite all-time quotes is, “Life is not measured by the number of breaths we take by the moments to take our breath away. “

Let me profoundly and emphatically state there have been so many moments with my husband that utterly left me breathless. I will leave you to your imagination and state for most of those moments. It’s so much more.

The day my husband put the ring on my finger is one of those moments. If you understand the significance of such a moment, you know the meaning is so much more than you can ever possibly begin to iterate into words. The ring takes my breath away, and there are many more moments. I am utterly undone.

One thing I have learned so profoundly on our long-distance journey is that it is so worth it to know everything about your partner. I still don’t feel I know everything but I love learning all the parts of him. I love him teaching me Urdu! If you wonder well does she love him the purpose of these poems and stories should make that absolutely and completely clear. I ardently love Umair and I look forward to loving him more and more deeply and watching our relationship grow. I ache for him in ways impossible to describe. The time we spend apart in separate countries is the hardest to endure. Even though we spend our days texting and FaceTime videos it does not replace time physically spent with my husband. The fact is that USCIS and other immigration programs have to streamline programs to bring couples together and prevent painful long periods where couples are NOT ALLOWED to be together in the same home. When mom died the only thing I wanted a needed is my husband and my kids. Outside of them I am an orphan in the world. I have gained a massive family with my husband but allowing all of them to travel to me impossible, because USCIS wouldn’t even allow my husband and I time to grieve together physically. We grieved together as we were allowed on FaceTime but I begged for him to be allowed to travel so we could be together and was basically scolded for wanting to cut in line. Did I think I was more important. Well yes, I think in that moment it was important for us to be allowed to be together.

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Once upon a time, in an often cruel and imperfect world, two children played gleefully on a beautiful spring day. The trees were budding, shouting that the earth was glowing and new.
Two children were remarkable and unique, as most children are but also the same for they were twins. Lan and Lee, only seven years old.
Each spring, the children would delight as they took their kites to soar in the gentle breezes of spring.
The winds were blowing fiercely and pulled young Lan’s kite higher and higher. Suddenly young Lan’s kite snapped, and the wind captured the kite. Lan looked at the empty string reel in her hands, and tears fell down her cheeks.
Lee was poised and came to her rescue, offering his own kite to soothe away her tears.
Lee wanted to bring a smile back to his sister’s face, fought the winds, and took his kite soaring into the air. Lee stumbled and fell into the mud along the way, his knees now battered and bleeding, but he felt no pain.
The kite was eventually torn from his hands and lifted higher and higher by the breeze.
Lee, not realizing he had been injured. Lan stopped crying and ran to her brother. Using her clothes to bandage his wounds and wipe the sweat from his brow.

The moral to this story never ever stop chasing your dreams and if your given the chance to love

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Roses are red

Violets are blue 

You take my breath away every damn time 

Just by saying I love you

Countless hours we spend on the phone texting and FaceTime and yes even napping and sleeping. I love you!

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some of our photos wedding quilt and trinkets from our wedding