Forest of Words

Friday nights are, as always currently an object of dread for me 

Every week that passes, you, of course on my mind

We text 

We FaceTime 

Constantly 

It still doesn’t change the fact that I want you next to me 

So here I am facing another Friday night again 

Here is this moment 

That I have begun to dread 

I want you home 

Right next to me 

Go out for dinner 

Or curl up watching tv 

You are all around me in the memories we have created, but I still long for you 

Saturday morning cuddles that lead to Sunday afternoon naps

Going for a long drive in our truck

Drinking coffee or tea

All these moments surrounded by longing to have you right next to me

It’s another Friday night, and I wish for you to be right next to me 

I, of course, have the solution to this never-ending problem 

Get on a plane

Get on a plane 

And I know you would for me 

At that moment, when we have our approval, we are suddenly free

I love you 

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In every minute of gratitude

There is you

In every second of beauty

There is you

In every minute of breathlessness

There is you

In every minute of wanting

There is you

In every minute of joy

There is you

For every moment you take my breath away

You are the measure of my heart every single day

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Camera candy is of course by Umair

Life lessons

I have had so many beautiful experiences in my life

I have loved my children

I love my fur babies

I love my mom as hard as that is to say today. Over the years she hurt me ALOT! I had to suffer for her choices as a druggy, a swinger, a partier! Every single thing that came before me. Even to her lies and her choices in making me.
but I’m really glad I have the opportunity to love her the ways she should have loved me. It’s been scary watching these changes and her decline. More like terrifying.

But….

I got the most amazing miracle in the process. Allah sent my Umair to chase me and I fell in love! I love him so much. The only thing harder than the memories and hurt my mom created is being devoted and caring for her as she transitions to the next part of her life is that for the first time in my life I want to be selfish and run and stay with my husband while we wait for our approval! I love him so fucking much and he is so strong for me through each phase of my mother’s decline. So maybe tonight and every night you might throw a little prayer up to the heavens that we get a miracle or two our way and he would be home and by my side.

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Twinkle Twinkle, little star ⭐️ 

I could be precisely where you are 

I want to feel your arms wrapped around me

I want to feel your lips and fingers touching me

You are my sunshine 

You brighten each day

You warm my heart more than all the sun’s rays

I love your heart

 I love your soul

I’m not too fond of the miles that separate us physically 

But love the bond we have 

Twinkle, Twinkle, bright shining stars 

Keep my husband safely under your brilliant rays

Shukriya

 Shukriya

Keep chasing your sparkle and light the way! 

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Roses are sometimes red

My cheeks are often pinky red all sweetly because of you

Look to the heavens and a sweetly pink red moon shines down over you

There is never a second you are not on my mind

You have my heart and soul for all time

We are closing in on another Friday and one thought is on my mind, get on a plane

I love you

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Dearest Bahi, I hope this note finds all of you doing well.

I want you to know that when I say I love your brother, Umair,  no words will ever do that feeling justice. You may live in an entirely different culture and country, but I can see from how you treat your wife that you genuinely admire and love her. Perhaps the more significant word is you treasure her. I treasure Umair; I love his heart! Love is not even a big enough word. The fact is that I want to be with Umair every day! I hate being away from him. I miss him so much.

Pitter Patter

Pitter Patter 

Are the sounds 

Hear the rain echos, crashing all around. 

Hear the claps of thunder as it crashes to the ground 

The world at night is so eerily dark 

Silence blossoms. 

There are no sounds

Night follows 

Here in the night, there is brilliant clarity 

So many life lessons 

It’s ok to show all the parts of your heart 

You can show the world you are soft as silk and still strong as steel 

Don’t worry, my darling

No pressure 

No diamonds 

Pitter Patter

Pitter Patter 

Are all the sounds 

Stand back

And Admire

The brilliance all around

💜I have sent my husband about every I love you Hallmark card I have located. I read that when you miss your husband and are in a long-distance relationship…. Around this time, my husband started talking to me in chats a little over 2 1/2 years ago… so when I miss him and even with all the texts, FaceTime videos, etc., guess what? I miss him wildly. When I miss him even more, I look at our photos! I’m his wife now, and I still miss him massively more times than I want to count! When I massively miss him, I listen to this little treasure The very first voicemail he ever sent me 💜

I love my husband

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It’s another Friday night here without you

The sun pours in its delightful rays through the window

The birds are off chirping gleefully

It’s Friday night and my heart longs for halva, chickpeas and warm delicious roghni naan, and a delicious yummy cup of chai to warm my heart and soul

It’s Friday night and I long for mountains and trees, monkeys swinging gleefully in the trees

It’s Friday night, I long for walks in the park

It’s Friday night, I long for walks on the beach, where the warm soft sand caresses my feet

It’s Friday night, I can spend hours telling you all the ways I wish I could spend my night

It’s Friday night, and I sit here dreaming of you

Did you know I love without measure

Did you know I certainly always give more than I ever take

Did you know that I rarely ask for anything

Except for my husband to be able to be right next to me at home

Did you know loyalty is a treasure that is priceless in the world today

Did you know the bonds of love are not easily broken

Did you know

Have you told the person you love today they are precious and you don’t want to spend a moment without them in your life

Be careful how you treat the ones you treasure

Did you know people judge based on location and not the measure of your character and heart

As for me

I will remember Allahs words today and every single day

Let you who are without sin cast the first stone

I wonder today and every single day

So many walk around without a care thinking they can take what’s not theirs trust me in Allahs promise blessed are the meek for they shall inherit the earth