Forest of Words

Another night where I lay awake needing you again

I want to feel you near me in our bed

Listening to every breath you take 

Feel your body next to mine

Feel the warmth of your skin warming me

It’s only been a week since I felt you on my skin

But it’s far too long 

I can’t breathe 

Need to feel my husband lying next to me 

This is not how it’s supposed to be 

I go to bed praying for miracles 

Where your face lights up, and you look at me with only one eye open

Kiss me deeply 

And then kiss me again

Wrap your arms around me

You are my everything 

You are my shelter through every storm

You are my lighthouse, showing me the way

You are my strength 

It’s another night, and I lay here missing you again

Masala is sometimes red

Masala can also be green 

Sometimes, the extra guram blend brings a rainbow of heat

Sometimes, the heat is more than you could even ever possibly dream 

Sometimes, the world is spicy 

In more ways than you can fathom 

And then there are times when the world opens up and shows you more love and life than you imagined or dared to dream 

I wonder what in the world ever mattered before you and me

Because in each moment that I wander through now 

I am overwhelmed with memories and love filled with you 

I am so grateful, blessed, and honored to share in this dance of our life 

and loving you and the opportunity to be truly loved and adored

All surrounding the love story that is you and me 

The blessing of a couple

Who, every day, dream and plan their lives 

The ones shared with all the love and family surrounding our lives 

The ones where we wake up tangled in each other’s arms

Where my sexy, spicy Persian Prince brings the heat

And I, as his Princess, Queen, and bride, bring what I hope is gentle sweetness all of the days of our lives

forever, my love won’t be nearly enough time

I wander through our nights and days 

Longing to be precisely where you are 

The bed is empty without your arms around me

I toss and turn 

I can’t even sleep

I ache for you 

I need you next to me

It’s impossible to put into words how much I love and need you 

It is confusing how, when we are together, I surrender peacefully, blissfully to sleep

I love you baby

The words are not even nearly big enough to describe how much you mean to me 

It’s always perfection lying in your arms,

At the beginning of each of our trips, I say to myself I get these many days, hours, minutes, and seconds

Greedily, of course, longing for wishing for and wanting more 

Now my brain is in overdrive of the pirouettes of words of all the magic and memories 

The flight traveling is always ugh; it seems to drag on for what appears to be days 

Once my feet hit the ground 

Family and love surrounded days and nights,

There were monkeys and doombas, a tiny elephant perhaps disguised as a buffalo, mountains, and so much more 

Breathtaking views 

Exploration: who could ask for anything more 

Naturally, I will respond it’s me who can and will ask for more every step of the way

Back in the world, your days are my nights, my nights are your days, and it seems we have hopped on the roller coaster again.

The only thing that ever seems to make perfect sense is belonging in each other’s arms 

Hand in hand 

Soft, delicious kisses when you wake me from my sleep

Mr. Umair, my love, I ache for you in every single way

Leaving you in the airport was agony

I had already cried rivers, not wanting to leave you again 

Scared to turn around, what would I do? Cry more? 

Would it stop me in my tracks?? 

Listen up, for anyone who ever cared to listen 

I have lived a life entirely (mostly) on American soil

I never knew any other way 

But when the man who holds your heart is something like 8,000 freakishly annoying miles away

What do you do? 

What can you do? 

Wait for the moments that are yours together 

I have a few bona fide words for any asshat who ever endured time away from the person they love 

You can bona fide give it a try! 

With love, always Mrs. Umair 

these words as so many of them are coming directly to you from mushmellon central xoxo

My darling 

Did I whisper the words today

Did you feel everything I feel in my heart for you 

Can you feel the way you take my breath away

Did I tell you today that your smile lights up my world

Did I tell you that in your arms is where I always want to be and belong eternally

Did I tell you today that leaving you in Islamabad ripped away at a piece of my soul

You are all that my heart was ever meant to love 

You make me want to be more 

To rise above all the words that have ever danced in my heart and brain

Did I tell you the night you got on one knee 

My heart exploded with a joy I cannot begin to describe 

I waited over a year and a half to meet you at the alter and become your bride

There is nothing in this world that I wouldn’t do 

You are the tenderest moments deep in the night

You are every passionate moment that ever existed on this earthly plane 

You are the sweetest kisses and passionate ones as well 

Each one defines me in every possible way

You and with you is exactly where I am supposed to be, where you and I love and work out the details of our life 

You are tender, fierce, and loving and you are forever and always mine

I’m in a plane thousands of feet in the air 

And this is something I don’t think I have ever done 

Written poetry for my husband at an elevation of 35,000 feet, and it couldn’t be more beautiful than if my feet were on the ground 

The only thing I know that makes sense is I’m traveling in the wrong direction! I need you in every possible way

All of my love forever from on top of the clouds! Mrs. Umair

It’s nearly 11 pm here and 10 am there 

We spent most of our days and nights together on our roller coaster life again. My nights are your days, and your days are my nights. I can’t wait to step off this crazy ride and launch into your arms 

I want you 

I need you every day, every minute of my life

You are my calm through each storm

You are my first thought when I wake 

My last thought before I close my eyes and drift off to sleep 

You are the millions of thoughts in between 

You are quite simply my everything 

My lover

My heart

My soul 

My air 

My best friend 

My husband 

And you are my everything else in between 

Meri jaani Umair 

My darling 

My love 

My everything 

Did you hear the wind as it rustled through the trees today

It was me calling out your name 

Did you feel the sunlight as it softly caressed your face 

It was me tenderly touching your face

Did you hear the birds chirping in the trees? I sent them to sing the melody of what you mean to me

Along with all my wishes to pull you nearer to me

I count the seconds

I count the minutes 

I count the hours 

I count the days 

Each with the most profound longing where you and I are side by side, loving each other

My darling, my sweet, did you feel the moonlight on your face 

It was me that sent the moonlight to kiss you deeply in the night

My forever, my everything. Did you see all the stars lighting up the skies

I sent them to remind you there is no end to how I love you. It is my gift for all of eternity. It has been written across the stars and across time 

And now, with the words forever in ink 

Just like your name on my skin, your love has branded me forever 

You are my air and my love. Take my hand and give your pledge to me, and seal our love story when you give me your name. 

There will never be enough time to love your heart, so I will ask for forever and a day where I might linger a while longer in our love. 

In every moment, I count the seconds, count the minutes, count the days 

I can’t wait for the moment when your hands are on my face

Your lips are caressing my lips in a dance all their own 

A fire ignited in each of our souls 

In the aftermath is where you and I begin

It is at that moment the beauty of our storm begins

Down to the heat

Down to the flames

Down to the core 

Down to the moment when our bodies become one 

Sheer delight

The sweetest pleasure 

Feel the pressure of your hips on mine 

Our bodies connected in the perfect storm

I am yours 

You are mine

A burning inside of me only you can quench

In every moment, I count the seconds, the minutes, the hours, and count the days 

For the moment when you twirl me in your arms 

Spiraling down, we begin our dance 

Where countless miles are suddenly erased for brief periods in time, you and I dance forever together, two hearts united bound by our love

A love story forged across the sands of time. 

In every moment we spend together in our lives, I long for more moments 

I can’t get you off my mind

We spend hours on FaceTime each day to feel that connection

To ease that longing just a little 

You with me while I fall asleep 

And I am with you while you fall asleep 

I love watching you while you sleep

It brings your distance in miles smaller, if even for only a brief moment 

And you tenderly watch me while I sleep 

Umair, my jaani, you take my breath away 

We can talk for hours about nothing and everything 

And still, I want more 

More of our time 

More of your love 

More minutes where your arms wrapped around my waist 

Your fingers on my skin

Your lips on my lips 

Your hands playing with my curls 

More conversations 

More explorations of the world 

I’m greedy for what so many people take for granted 

In every single moment 

Every single day

Every minute is taken for granted when they get the privilege of spending time in each other’s lives

I adore you

I love you 

I need you 

You bring me all the moonlight, sunlight, and sparkle in this world 

Thank you, for the love of our lifetime, thank you for every single second, minute, hour, and every single day! with love, forever your Princess

I’m not perfect; I have never claimed to be 

But loving you, baby

Loving you, my baby 

Is the only thing that makes any sense to me 

How in the fucking world two people so in love were thrown into different countries, 

On opposite sides of the world 

I will never know 

I ache for you in ways that are impossible to show

I long for you in ways unimaginable to properly articulate 

I don’t have much to give for now. This will have to do 

It’s all I can provide for you to hold in your hands 

And see with your eyes 

Mein ap say muhabit karta hoon meri jaani, Umair (I love you so much, my beloved Umair) 

That and nighties, T-shirts, and more “ I love you” Hallmark cards than any human might possess ! I love you times infinity!