Forest of Words

Written by Lynn Marie Umair 2023

It’s 3 am again, and deep in the night, there are no sounds

Words begin their pirouettes

Laying here wishing for sleep to swiftly draw me in. 

I long to feel your skin on mine for the three hundred millionth time today

The velvet caresses of each tender moment ever present in my mind

There is no cure for the ache, but for you to be by my side each day.

Lost in the moment where it is more morning than night

I need you in every possible way

Is this how other people who do not have their partners by their side

Curling up in the scarfs you sent me 

I smell your cologne on me

This simple pleasure brings you nearer to me

Offer up a prayer for sleep to draw me 

For now, I love you, sweet dreams, and good night from my side. 

Did you ever think there would come a day when you and your love are everything and so much more to one girl 

Like the soft, dewy kisses the rain brings to the earth 

Do you feel what you have done to me

The burning ache inside of me

Did you ever think your strength would lift up and carry your partner throughout each and every day

Like a mighty oak sways in the breeze, steady, never faltering from its course

Do you feel all the love inside of me that I have for you

I need you like air 

I need you like water

I need you like the rays of the sun and the moon

My love for you is more than all the stars that fill each night sky

You are my strength and protection, and I know you will never falter 

You are the other half of the beating in my heart

I am going to love you for an eternity and even longer, my love, my Umair.

Written by Lynn Marie Umair 2023

Written by Lynn Marie Umair 2023

Here, in the eerie silence of night, the words begin their dance where there are no sounds
Only a sea of emotions you have brought to life within me
surrounded by the cataclysmic storm that unfolds within me
the storm of emotions threatens to rage out of control
desire and longing
an aching in my soul
you are the only cure for the fire that rages within me
your words
your strength
each touch
each time you utter you love me, I want to hear the words more
when you say it in Urdu, I don’t have words to describe what it does to me
each sweet kiss
there will never be enough
the passion you ignite from merely a glance

my heart beats loudly pounding out your name

Twinkle, twinkle bright shining stars, hear my wishes, hear my pleas,
sending out all my love across the sea,
across the sand,
flowing softly through the breeze,
whisper my message
lift my lover with all the passion burning inside me
give him courage and strength to endure each storm
light the way
flowing across eternity
a star-kissed dreamer
seal my wishes with a million sweet, tender kisses for my Umair
hear my declaration for the entire world to see
my darling
my sweet
my everything
my heart
forever will never be long enough to whisper my love while making circles on your back while you sweetly sleep
billions of kisses offered in the dark where only the starlight and the moonlight witness this loving embrace given to you each night
I never wanted to waste a single minute. I hungrily took every second I could and more, loving you and lying safe, loved, protected, sheltered in your arms
So no, Umair forever will never be enough time
I have been branded by your heart
Branded by your love
your name pounded out by each beat of my heart.

Call Hallmark Baby! Roses are red! Violets are blue! You can bet your sweet ass Umair, no one will ever love you as much as I do! You’ve got my heart and you’ve got my soul!

ps…. Umair’s smile takes my breath away!

I love you Umair! I love you so so so much!

Summary of my letter to Boundless Immigration Bernadette Perficio. Hey! Thanks for reaching out again and I’m weighing options I want the best guarantee and immigration representation to get Umair next to me. I love him and that is all there is. I want you to know I hate the bureaucratic bullshit hoops we have had to jump through to prove that we are a real couple. Any doubts left in your heart or mind go check out my blog 95% is entirely about Umair. And frankly, it was a boundless representative that said we needed more time to prove we were real and let me tell you it hurt my heart. I have fought battles because I am in love with that man. So the next time you get to wake up everyday with the person you’re in love with!!! Don’t fucking take it for granted. I have endured a year and a half of “time” to add to our case!! So look back and if the representative is still there talk to him.  Because he said they would tear Umair to shreds at the interview. So I’m gonna ask you the same thing I asked him! You got anybody questioning the validity of your relationship with the person you’re sleeping next to??? Because a year and half a part from each other has been sheer hell! And I don’t have buckets of money to pay for trips to traveling all the time and I’m the caregiver for my mom, Umairs mother in law!!! I have endured and my love for that man is even more profound than when we began! Still wondering if we are REALLY REAL check out aforestofwords.blog

I love you Umair at the start and end of each day! I want you for the rest of my life! I want you by my side! I hope it’s ok, Umair because I’m gonna love you for the rest of my life! https://youtu.be/yYXtLdpty4c?si=snsbp04rha2v_lAx

Bernadette’s response

Hi Lynn,

I completely understand your concerns, and I want to assure you that if your relationship is genuine, that’s what matters.

The person you spoke with is already out of the company and I apologize for any misinformation provided by the person you spoke with. At Boundless, we prioritize accurate information, and as long as you meet the necessary requirements, you can proceed with confidence. If you have any more questions or concerns, feel free to discuss them with me.

Umair has told me multiple times since we left Dubai that he didn’t want to live without me and he didn’t even want to try to. My reply is exactly the same to Umair. Forever, my baby. I will follow you to the ends of this earth. Umair, my love ,my heart , I never want to exist without you.

It’s one of my all time favorite quotes and through the course of Umair and I and our relationship it could not hold more meaning. “Life is not measured by the number of breaths we take but by the moments that take our breath away!”
It remains profoundly true every day I find more ways that I love my husband. Just a few of the moments he has taken my breath away.

So when anyone asks about our love story these are the words I have to impart. The beginning of every breath that ever mattered began when Umair started loving me. The moments when he has picked me up and sheltered my heart are simply to many to count. Our honeymoon in Dubai, I came even more to life. I have never known paradise. From simple declarations of afternoon tea or Tim Horton coffee. Umair and I going all around searching for a half and half pizza and we were happy. I didn’t have a clue what all the jazz was about the fountain and then Umair took me there. Lady Gaga “I will never love again” played and it cannot be more truer, Umair a lifetime will never be long enough loving you. The half day tour, I loved our guide his words only added to our paradise. You took my breath away putting your arms around me in the taxi and on the tour bus. Culminating by happiness when you took me to the mosque for the very first time. There was one across from our hotel as well. Our trip to see the Atlantis hotel. The green planet and touching a snake while holding you. The gold souk and the boat taxi. When I look at our journey there is only love more and more love for you that takes my breath away. For a girl who had never seen the world, Umair offered me paradise for our honeymoon. In Dubai, we kissed and held each other constantly, and I only wanted to hold Umair even more, he takes my breath away. Up and down the elevator I wanted him on my skin touching me. I am undone, and utterly and completely in love with my husband. The day I boarded the plane the entire day I felt more and more sadness, I held it in until I was past the first security check point and then cried practically the entire 48 plus hour flight. I cried seeing the couple holding each other on the departure benches in Germany. It should have been Umair and I. I cried because if Umair could have traveled with me we would have taken the layover. The only happy moments the return flight were Umair and I on the phone. The next three days after I got home I didn’t know how I would ever breath again. Since returning to US I have goals I have to achieve the ones that bring Umair and I together forever and legally. I have heard bullshit about the country he is from etc., and truly look at any one of these photos and find a spot where you don’t see two people completely in love. So after the immigration lawyers said more time to prove you two are legit. The only thing I know is I love Umair and I would, will and continue to walk through fire to bring us together in the same country forever.

Roses are not always red,

Violets are sometimes blue

Another night in our bed spent aching for you

Counting the stars up in the sky

Wondering if the same stars light up your night

Lost in this ocean of night

Love you with every breath

Need you by my side

Where we chase the sun and stars together

Need you in every way

You are my love

You are my life

My sweet Umair my declaration will have to do for tonight as I offer my I love you’s whispered in the night

Disclaimer for USCIS and every single immigration lawyer! A persons country does not define a persons ability or inability to love or be real. So when you question just know you will be directed to all of this! When people tell me they will rip him to shreds in his interview it tears me apart! Just know I love Umair and he loves me without each other we fight to breath, we fight to exist. Umair is my life and my love so shove that up your “Taati”asses! “Panchos!”

Loving my husband just one of the many ways I love his playful side and giving me my birthday scarfs early in photos so we can share these events and holidays together. And frankly, because the postal service takes so long. Umair also sprays them with his cologne so I can sleep holding them close to me and have a piece of him right next to me!! He also picked the scarfs entirely on his own. Spoiler alert, I love his heart and that he is mine!!!

My husband Umair, my brother-in-law Zubair and my precious Zyan

Our truck is in the shop undergoing massive repairs! The Camry is the loaner they gave us and a freak snowstorm!